[001] What it is now, is the most awful thing. What it was then, was the most amazing thing.

[002] I've been around the blocks, I know all the types, I don't have a type. Don't try and play games with the girl who invented the rules.

[003] I hope your life leads you back to my door, but if it don't, stay beautiful. ( Taylor Swift )

[004] I'd like to be able to get over my first love, but it's too hard, even if we've been done for a few months, he'll never be forgotten, neither will that feeling.

[005] My heart was left cracked, never fully put back together. There will always be a crack, where you will fit in.

[006] People don't understand what getting over a first love is like; kinda like finding a corner in a round room, or holding your breath under water for hours, kinda like driving on an endless highway, or kinda like losing a life. You lose a part of you.

[007] No matter how many lies you told, or how bad the scars are that you left me, or the mess you left me to clean up, I will always love you. I will always have something in me, waiting for you.

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[001] Why am I chasing things that will never stop running?

[002] You made me feel like the only girl in the world. Then, you tore that world apart and stole my heart.

[003] At a point in my life, I'd like to warn girls with vulnerable hearts.

[004] When he tells you're hot; he's lookin at your body. When he tells you you're pretty; he's lookin at your face. When he tells you're beautiful; he's looking at your heart. <3

[005] There's not a day that goes by when you're not on my mind. Yes, I miss you. Yes, I wish I didn't. -Myself<3

[006] So my heart has gone every direction. I don't really have a type, and I won't eat in front of guys. I put a new piece of gum in, if I'm unsure of my breath. I try not to lean in for a kiss, but let them. I try not to text first, but I'm way to unpatient. And I freak over if you're talking to other girls. Yes, I'm a little weird in love. I do some strange things. I say things I regret. Do things I regret.

But hey, I'm seventeen.

[007] Could you please be a man? Could you not tell them about our messages. Phone calls. Everything? That would make me surely happy!

[008] Everyone judges me. I can find a hundred different things wrong with me, I wish you couldn't find one.

[009] Why do they rate movies "R" for adult langauge, I'm pretty sure, we're the only ones speaking that way.

[010] Teenage girls are too caught up with being with a guy that's the best for everyone else and not the best for themselves.

[011] Don't accuse me of "falling in love with you", I'm pretty damn sure you said it too. (:

[012] You broke my heart, but that's too hard to explain to you. You will never understand.

[013] The slightest thing you could do, is tell me why. But, I'll never understand. . .

[014] At seventeen, sickness and death, isn't the only to cause tragedy.

[015] Do not take advantage of me. You'll regret it.

[016] God made coke, God make pepsi, god made me oh-so-sexyy, and God made rivers, God made lakes, God made you, well, we all mistakes?

[017] I'm done faking the smiles, and forcing the laughter. I'm done letting my mind wander to thoughts of you. I'm done trying to be happy, when I'm clearly not. I'm done with the people trying to make me happy. It's not fucking working. I'm done chasing happiness.

[018] The moment you said; "Find someone else to listen to your bull shit complaints." I said; "I found you. Remember, when you said you'd always be listening?"

[019] I'm seventeen. I need people to hear me, not just listen. I want people to see me, not just look. I want people to see how unperfect I am, and stop seeing that just because I look fine out the outside, doesn't mean I'm dying on the inside. I wish that people could realize, I'm a girl who needs hope, and faith, and I need to be loved. I wish people could see that I'm not what they think I am.

[020] Our love was irrational, and different, and funny, and stupid, and careless, but, fuck it. I'm not looking for anything serious?

[021] The beach sounds good right now. The place to lose myself completely, and burn, the place where I can cool off in the water, and run on for hours. The place, where I could run away from the world. Ya, the beach sounds good right now.

[022] If you're not okay, if you're killing inside, if you want to run away from the world, stop pretending like you're fine.

[023] You called me everyday. Woke me everymorning, whispered goodnight in the phone. Sent me to-die-for texts, and Valentine's was the best. What the fuck happened?

[024] When I'm alone, I'm scared. When I'm surrounded, I just wanna be alone again.

[024] I thought you were absolutely amazing. But really your just another heartbreaker.

[025] After talking everyday, it's hard to think that we haven't talked in atleast four whole days...

[026] Yes, I need a lot of things. And I'll probably never be okay...But, one of the things I've completely given up on is happiness. I will never search for this again.

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[001] You're in the past, and that's where you'll always be.

[002] The guy may wear the pants in the relationship, but the girl controls the zipper.

[003] We're the type of people who would get hit by a parked car.

[004] Hey, life's not a garden, so stop being such a hoe.

[005] Don't judge a person until you really know them. . .

[006] On the darker nights, your my brighter lightt.

[007] I don't care what anyone says. I don't care if they judge me for wanting you, I don't care what anyone says.

[008] You know you had a good time, when you can't tell your parents what you did.

[009] Woke up late today, and I still feel the sting of the pain, but I brush my teeth anyway, and get dressed through the mess and put a smile on my face. . . A little bit stronger. Driving in the car to work, and I'm trying to ignore the hurt, so I, turn on the radio, stupid song made me think of you, but I listen for a minute, and then I change it. I'm a little bit stronger. ( Sara Evans )

[010] Knowing that something will never happen, won't make you want it any less.

[011] Yeah, they talk about her, and she smiles like she's tough. She says "Can you talk a little louder?, I don't think my heart is broken enough."

[012] Faith isn't faith until it's all you've got.

[013] You be the anchor that keeps my feet on the ground, and I'll be the wings that keep your heart in the clouds.

[014] If I'm not what you want, don't act like I am.

[015] I'm strong, but I break. I'm stubborn, and make many mistakes.

[016] I wonder if you fear me sometimes. If you fear how much I'd do for you. Well, guess what? I'm afraid of myself too.

[017] Maybe it's not my weekend, but it's gonna be my year. ( All Time Low )

[018] When you get closer, my heart beats faster, and my stomach drops, my whole body gets nervous. All my heart tries to do, is be calm.

[019] I'm sick of your lies tearing me apart, breaking my simple fragile heart. I want you to feel the pain that I do, want to see if you like it too? I want you to feel the wet tears pour down your face, and stop that annoying walking pace. I'm done with you and your lies, and the ways you tear me apart inside, because I can't take it anymore. I'm walking out the door, for good now. And moving on.

[020] When I kissed you, I could taste all your sweet lies.

[021] Every night, you pop into my mind, could I pop into yours one time?

[022] If you run away, and you think they'll chase you. Your wrong, they don't chase after you like they do in movies.

[023] I make mistakes, look like regular dayss.

[024] The simplicity of holding hands, inside of them, lays the complications in their love.

[025] Grow up, and eat. Aneroxia will ruin you. Don't let it take over, you're beautiful, each and everry way.

[026] Stop lying to me, I will never believe them.

I'm done talking with you about what happened, because it happened. And it's over.

And I finally realized it, and you won;t. But, you're the one who ended it Grant?

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